My ‘To Be’ List for Living Peacefully With Rheumatoid Arthritis
At the beginning of last year I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis and it left me with severe chronic pain, fatigue and low self-worth. My flares last many months at a time and my medication suppressed my immune system so thoroughly that I kept ending up with pneumonia that would last more than a month at a time and stop me in my tracks. I had to stop working, stop exercising, stop going out in the heat, and stop looking after my family and myself. This has impacted every single facet of my family’s life.
But the cool change in the air today and the promise of a new year has me thinking. If a day can go from scorching and burning and stamping my skin with new freckles to suddenly causing pinpricks of coldness to creep across my limbs, then why should I believe I am incapable of affecting changes across my own life in as much time as a year?
I may be fractured and thus a little weaker than I used to be, but I am not entirely crushed. I am not beyond repair. It is entirely possible that, with a little effort to change the way I approach the world, I could find new ways to feel the way the things I used to love, made me feel. It is possible that I could find fulfillment from smaller moments, a slower pace and celebrating victories that are monumental, but might not seem like much only when compared to what I used to be, what I am no longer.